Strange deja vu.

Have you ever felt like this?

I've been feeling like that for the past few days now. I can't say it's because of any one reason, or person, or whatever; maybe just the way my mind has been thinking lately. Life has a funny way of making things go full circle, and that has never been more clear for me than tonight.


My mind is feeling dizzy. When I'm driving around town late at night, I tend to turn the music down so that I can clearly hear my own thoughts. Odd, I know, but I do my best thinking when I'm alone in the car. (Which might be too distracting, considering this would probably explain my car accident last week!) So while leaving a familiar place, with a familiar face and a familiar smell, I found myself driving down a very familiar road, thinking aloud, saying things to myself that I fondly remember saying to myself almost four years ago.




It all felt...FAMILIAR.

I felt something I hadn't felt in a long time, and I think it was the feeling of discovery; discovery of something I thought was lost, but really, maybe only temporarily clouded (?). Of course, the times have changed, people have changed, and there's a ton of things to consider. Perhaps when the time is right, I'll think about it some more. [Ugh.]

All things considered, this is a fabulous time to actually focus on myself for once. I worry so much about everyone else's happiness, that I generally forget that that happiness comes at the cost of offing my own.


SUCK. IT. UP. Story of my life. :P


(Not sure where I'm going with that. ARRRRG, who knows. Like I said, I'm dizzy. Just like life, my head is going in circles too.)



For the time being, I'm addicted to the Twilight Saga, and about a quarter through New Moon. It's fantastic! :D



Very teen girl of me.



"Whatever."**



And my recent fantasy dream about Hayley Williams, who I never really considered a celebrity crush, has now made it such that. Either that, or I'm just in love with the person I met in my dream, regardless of what she looks like or who she is.





love. peace.





** When said by itself as a response, is quite possibly the most irritating word in the English language. It can start fights, and others will agree. LOL